Blessed: A Word We Often Forget

We forget sometimes to sit back and count our blessings. We take the simple things we have for granted and never realize how lucky we are for having what we have. One thing I know I am truly blessed with was being able to find the most amazing group of friends in this crazy, mad, and insane place we call medschool. I was fortunate enough to meet people that like what I like; that understand me; that feel like family; friends that make me feel at home, no matter how far away I was from my own family. But because of medschool, we've all been scattered around different years and campuses. Even with that I've managed to make life-long friends; ones that crossed the line of friendship and have become family. I spent some of the best few days in a looooong time this weekend. I decided to visit my friends, and I must say...they brought a smile to my face and made me laugh so hard I had tears; something that I haven't done in a while. 

There's not much I want to say, just that my soul is content. Words wouldn't be enough to describe how happy they made me feel. I can not put into words the amount of joy they bring into my life; I may not say it enough to them, but they are the source of my happiness when all things seem like they are so close to crumbling...

..Talk about a sappy post!!! Jeeeeeeez! How about we end it now, before I regret being such a GIRL! But, honestly...if there are people out there that make you feel like you are so blessed to even have met them, HOLD ON TO THEM! You only meet people like that once in a lifetime, do not let go and make sure you make the effort. You don't want to spend your days regretting the silly things you could have avoided. 

Now I shut up.... 
Ciao beautiful people =)

Survival of the Inner Beast

We all have that inner beast within us. The one that lashes out when needed. The dark creature that lurks within the covert corridors of our brain; whispering sinful deeds for us to act out or just implanting devious ideas within our souls...

...all of that sounds dark and ominous but in truth all of that is what I see on a daily basis in medschool. Ever since we started our clinical year, everyone wants to shine; everyone wants to mark their presence. Mind you, I have nothing against that. You need to do whatever you can to stand out; that's the way it works in medschool. It's a competition like no other; grueling mental assault against one another; stepping on people to get where you want to get. It's the survival of the fittest; but in our case it's the "Survival of the Inner Beast". 

I have never seen people hate on each other, work to make someone look bad, or even just stepping on someone's shining moment just to be praised and acknowledged. I do agree that you have to compete in medschool, it's how it is. But there are ways to go about it; there are honorable ways to compete (yes, I totally had a Japanese principle of life moment...deal with it). There are ways better than making someone look bad. How about you just work on being really good, without bringing someone down? Why break people, when medicine is already doing that for you?! It's cruel and inhumane.

It's a harsh world we live in, and it saddens me to see that future doctors act this way towards their classmates and colleagues. It says a lot about the kind of person you are, and the kind of doctor you want to be. 90% of being a good doctor, is being kind, compassionate and understanding towards people's feelings. The best doctors are the ones that make you feel safe and good; not necessarily the ones with the most knowledge. 

I have seen girls cast away a girl for being smart and somewhat of a teacher's pet. I have seen girls talk horribly about a guy that just didn't know how to handle a child; and I have seen people make snide remarks at people's mishaps. And there I stand, just watching people's true nature unfold before my very own eyes. I stand there listening to what they say and I draw myself far away from all the negativity. I make sure I do not get sucked into their vortex of backstabbing and insensitivity. 

To be honest, what I'm doing; the ability to shut people out..that's the survival of the inner beast. Not the ones that bring others down; but the one that knows how to fight back with a calm mind. I hope people remember that karma is a BITCH. What you do to others, will be done to you. Better watch your backs...

Inner Beast!